Perspective

Well, there has been 8 months since my last post which isn't a surprise from my perspective. After all, should it be surprising that a blog where the inaugural post communicates a personal inability to follow through on commitments was dropped for two-thirds of an entire year? No, it should not be a surprise.

What might be a surprise is that within the last eight months a prodigious shift in the status quo occurred which I personally am still dealing with tong-term, but which taught a valuable lesson in the short term. I am, of course, talking about the death of a close, dear friend, a brother, back in April. This won't be a post which goes into detail about what happened, I don't know if I am ready to publish that information (or will ever be able publish it), but I did want to post a few lines regarding a lesson I learned in the aftermath.

In the first post, In Media Res, I revealed how the 500 hours I spent playing a video game were seen as a waste of time and energy because of the lack of a concrete, tangible outcome after investing all the time, energy and effort into the game. I still believe that it's preferable to spend 500 hours at a constructive endeavor, but my previous disgust at what I thought was a waste of time has been tempered by the fact that a majority of those 500 hours were spent playing that game with my brother, Jubal. Locked in the gray matter of my brain are memories of hours of enjoyment with a friend I knew for 25 years. What 8 months ago was disdainful has become bittersweet, and now I recall fondly the conversations and insights which accompanied late-night gaming sessions. I wouldn't trade those 500 hours for all the prestige in the world.

So, here we are eight months later and the 500 hundred hours project is being re-tooled in light of the lessons since April 30th. A re-commitment to the blog is a consequence of the re-dedication to going back into the gym; the counter will start back at 0 as of 10/20/10. I look forward to re-engaging my physical development as I have missed it over the last few months. The spiritual and mental development was in inverse proportion with the physical development, so I am loathe to call the last 8 months as worthless.

To end, the message for this post at least is to remember that a lot can change in a short period of time and while some change will be good and some will be bad, our ability to put events into perspective can sustain us through despair and restrain us through our heady moments.

Take care and keep in touch.